Hi all...
Am peeping into the blog after a loooong time.. Don ask me y... :) .. Its a secret...
R v all content wid v hav now? I am nt. I din mean the money or d env v r in, but our life.
I dunno how many know this, I don like computers and this IT field . 'Completely sickening with a bunch of good for nth ppl sittin in front of comp, typing in endless lines' . this was d opinion i had when i was in school. Till 12th i neva worked in a comp ( To mention except in 7th n 8th where v had compulsary classes in school . I managed to score well B- :) ) . I neva attended math entrance class. Used to skip it always, say parents dat i hav other works sit n sleep in class.
But when d entrance results came, it was a major shock to the entire family. I din make up to any of the govt medical college missing it by points. May b fate was so.
First attack that changed my life completely.
Till date am cursing myself for not scoring well enough to get into medicine which i longed for from my childhood days. To say my father was the reason behind it. I disappointed him very much.
Next the hunt for engineering college. Myself and my father used to have heated discussion over which college to choose. I want to do electricals or electronics. I some how like the electrons and protons :) , may b my physics teacher played an imp role in it. Again, fate din play fair. Second attack. I din get in ECE or EEE in anna n PSG. So took IT in PSG.
Not a day passed without me mourning for wat position i was den. I neva get the code. Neva understood the greek and latin ppl used to teach in the name of programming language. Atlast somehow i passed in eth and got the degree in hand.
Now the job. Though i earn, this is not wat i want. This is not the life i expected and longed for. Simply to say there in no meaning for my life now. Even if i want 2 do highers, i simply cant. Coz d sub doesnt interest me.
Somehow i developed interest in drawing. But work n work n more work. U eventually forget eth else.
N there goes. Life continues like this foreva.
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Even my story is kinda similar to hers.. But i neva dreamed or had obsession to any profession durin my school days.. evn in +2.. But My parents always wanted me to join medicine and bcome a doctor.. they are several reasons for that.. Few are, we have three engineers in our house itself excluding me.. and greatly.. among our relatives.. evry family had at least one doctor.. So they enrolled me in SRV.. The only good thing from SRV is that they made be to mug all the pages in Physics, chemistry and bio... Imagine they want t students to mug t answers for each problem in maths book.. All went in fine those two years.. The anticipation of my parents raised like a thermometer kept in boiling water.. as the results were getting nearer.. First came the entrance results.. I scored 96.sumthin for 100 to join medicine.. I kept their hopes alive even at this stage.. they believed that i ll nt lose even a single penny in my theory papers.. Then came the disaster day for my parents.. the results were out.. scored 197.5.. my cutoff was 293.75.. I was on a safer side bcoz thy can neither scold nor appreciate me for such kind of turnout.. they used to tell even now tat i lost medical seat by less than 1 cutoff.. They wanted me to write AIIMS and CMC(vellore).. I did evrthin.. but all went in vain.. But i neva regretted for losing a medical seat.. But a small agony is that i cudnt fulfil my parent's dream.. Then came some kinda political drama by our puratchi thalaivi amma.. "No entrance from this year for the benefit of village students".. was running as flash lines at the bottom of the Jaya tv.. Tis really worried me.. bcoz i lost more marks in theory than entrance.. I judged myself that i will get CIT for my marks.. Then one of our relatives suggested me to apply for MSc-software engineering in PSG tech.. actually i was nt interested in doin tat.. I always wanted to do professional course.. I went to PSG tech to attend the interview.. U know sumthin.. the person who interviewed was Arumuganathan sir.. after t interview, I roamed around our college.. i neva thought that I will join the same institution.. Meanwhile.. the entrance was accepted by our state gvt.. Then.. I decided to join only BE.. Our TV was running news all t time and for the interviews with educational experts.. Students call them by phone to know t college which they ll get seat with their marks.. Then came the counseling date..
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ReplyDeleteSorry.. the page has a limit on the length of the comment.. So i hv to split.. I went to chennai.. Mine was on t second day.. I went 2 days earlier to chennai.. I thought i wud easily get cse in PSG.. or IT in MIT.. but disappointingly all the BC-cse seats in PSG were over by evening.. At then end of the day.. I had 5 seats in IT-PSG, and E&I in Anna.. I dont wanted to join civil, electrical and Mechanical.. So I decides join our dept.. Next day.. mine s t irst session starting at 8.. I reached at 7:30 with my paernts and sister.. Suddenly some smoke came near the building.. Fire men came and the session got dealyed by an hour.. after that drama, i went in with my sister.. i am t fifth member in the hall.. I hurried to the one among several desktops to confirm my seat.. the women who was incharge.. cooly asked my sister, "Endha collegema mudivu paniruka??".. A sudden shock to me.. she was 5 years older than me.. but for her eyes she looked younger than me.. wat an irony?? then my sister told her that she s elder and the candidate s me.. I happily selected IT in PSGTECH.. Soon after.. I was threatened by my sisters and relatives that the college ll b difficult for me.. as i took one among the last five BC seats.. Thy dozed down by so called confidence level to zero by several monitions.. Those hypothetical warnings and more familar subjects made me score a lil bit higher in first sem.. After then i neva touched any book.. guys know much abt me.. i think i ll b t lost one to touch in t hostel.. I m a hard core procrastinator.. tis comment already came longer than the post.. I ll write all my college tales as separate post.. Tis s t story how i got into our college.. It ll b good if evryone share how they got into our department.. :) :)
ReplyDeleteVow... I had a hearty laugh at Hari's interesting narration.. Nice.. I've been with this bugger for 4 years and spent the last yr ruefully in our bunk beds switching between rooms in J Block and still together...
ReplyDeleteBUT>... Not even a single day has he sounded so rhythm and composed to listen to as he himself confessed that he is a procrastinator.
Good job macha.. At some point of time even Introverts expose themselves.
I am surprised that Jeff hasnt replied to this post yet. As his story more substantial than any of ours. The defiant Koorathalvar :)..
ReplyDeleteI hope u dont take that offensive Jeff.. Look at that comment sportively..
ReplyDeleteAur kya.. Now coming to this sweet scented post. VERY GOOD PIECE Prathy.. I am certainly happy and unregretful that even at nite 12 30 AM u keep me curious. Good, Veryy Good.
Paavam prathy. She has so much sentiments seeded into this story. Dont worry Prathy. In all our stories>>
ReplyDeleteMan Proposes & God Disposes..
I infact wanted to be a part time gambler and full time parliament spokesperson. Take it light and fill your life with surprises.
Kyun ki.. The Elements not in the plan are those that make the package complete. Else life wud become predictable.
Please go and watch Forrest Gump. U wud then think "I aint half as crazy as the rest of this ppl in this world:)"
@senthil: I m not an introvert.. i am self adamant to expose certain things at certain places..
ReplyDeleteAnd talking abt Forrest Gump.. one of the gr8 movies of t last decade.. a must watch if u r a Tom Hanks fan.. t following dialogue 4m tis movie will suit this post..
"Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get."
@hari...
ReplyDeleteI think u r d fellow 2 take the IT seat next to me. When i went in there i had 6 seats left in IT :).
N abt the medicine.. for ya info, v calculate for 200 not for 300.. i was too happy to get 49.5 in bio but on the other hand scored jus 45.5 in phy n chem... n dat was a stupid mistake i did during the entrance.. i ll write another another post of dat later.. My medicine score was 193.5...But amma's decision gave a hope coz i had 298.5 in hand...
den all of a sudden... its gone like a nightmare :(
@senthil
ReplyDeleteI had enough in life to write pages n pages of my agony... so this s so simple...
@prathi:
ReplyDeleteNope.. Medical entrance cut off is for 300..and I m pretty much sure abt it..the split up is like..
100 Entrance(50 bio/maths + 50 phy-che) + theory(50 phy + 50 che + 100 Bio/maths)..
And about your flunked ambition.. I think, Your destiny is not 2 become a doctor.. "Neva regret for what u lost.. Be happy with what u got"..
If u really had strong thirst to do service t diseased ppl.. u can push your carrier into research sectors of IT like robotics.. nanoscience.. in developing new ways of diagnosis and treatment.. so that u can fulfill ur lost dream indirectly.. :)
@hari....
ReplyDeletethere s no special mark split up for medicine alone....
its like this... bio-50, phy n chem combined-50 for entrance... n theory is bio-50 n phy-25 n chem - 25...
enadhaan school mudinju 4 yrs aanalum idhelaam marapaangala?
@prathi:
ReplyDeletehey enaku sathiama marandhu pochu :) then mine shud be 193.75, I know the last two digits alone.. for engineering 300 or 200? Thanks for lighting up me..:)
Hmmm interesting exchange of experiences and memoirs. i too have a similar begining as hari said - flash news in tv -no entrance he he but thanks to some sensible persons who got the entrance marks included ,now am sharing my experiences with you guys :)i had counselling in the first day afternoon. as it happens in most cases my parents were with me in the counselling with only two courses in mind cse and i.t.As it turned out there were 16 seats in bc cse just before my batch was to come .then came the twist all the 16 seats were gone in a flash :) thats how i came into I.T and the guys i met on the first day were number 13 and 47 :)
ReplyDeletei too wrote aieee , but thats for play sake.:)then i wrote NDA and as i have told b4 was called for the airforce interview , which was not revealed to me by my parents ,which i found out by the letter under a pile of old news papers:)this is how i completed 4 yrs in p.s.g tech :)
i feel still , that i could have been given a chance to attend that interview :) but all that happens happens well :)
i dunno why i took biology group, because i had little interest in it,and i got only 45 or so in the biology entrance . but physical science and maths saved me around 48.xy in physical science and 34 odd in maths.
after the entrance result came my parents were saying that my ,maths score was not good,later when the hindu published the range of cutoffs then they understood that it was an ok score .
when i was in school my mom kept on saying abt psg to me , may be it was her wish and prayers that shaped my destiny in psg tech :)
@ senthil
ReplyDeleteas i said i have taken a sabbatical from this blog :) and now am back. i just watched from the sidelines hoping to see some one else rear their head and write post but as it goes without saying the regularities continue and so i decided it is time for me to jump in :)
@ prathi
ReplyDeletedont worry abt the entrance marks . they are a piece of history now . may be we could show that piece of paper to the future generations "this is how i got into college "
@all:
ReplyDeleteI have a doubt.. for how much we calculated medical cutoff during our batch.. I was confused..
http://www.hinduonnet.com/2005/06/08/stories/2005060804350800.htm
Pl someone give a clear view over tat..
@ hari- for the hard core procrastination thing
ReplyDelete"yesterday is history , tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift thats why it is called present "- a dialogue from kung fu panda.life presents endless possibilities and endless mysteries before you to enjoy ,to solve so why think abt the past and spoil the present :)
@hari regarding exposure
you say that you are self adament to esxpose certain things but since u did not you are called as INTROVERT :)
@Jeff:
ReplyDeleteFrom your point of view, a person who don't expose certain things to others means INTROVERT... If so then all of us are introverts... No one in tis world, (at least n tis blog..) expose themselves completely.. there are certain things that cant be brought limelight at certain places.. i neva said like i dont expose at all.. introverts are ppl who don't even talk to others.. I accept that i am slightly reserved.. but not i m nt an introvert.. Its like sayin a common fever as typhoid.. :)
@all
ReplyDeleteI think more or less evry1 had diff dreams n if things had worked out, wud hav been in a diff world wid diff ppl... but alas ended up in PSG IT...
But i am happy dat i did earn a very gud set of frnz...
Thanks 2 PSG...
@ hari
ReplyDeleteif a person exposes all his things,as you say, then the word personal has to be removed from the dictionary. dude u did not tell what you felt rather u were keen in knowing matters abt others:)
@Jeff: So, if a person is keen in knowing others matter rather than exposing him.. u call him as introvert uh? :) :) I do accept tat i used to pull out info from my buddies.. it can b my special ability.. I ll say its their inability to defy themselves to keep the word personal still in t dictionary :) :) t problem with them & not me..and i m trying to prevent t word from getting removed :) :)
ReplyDelete@prathi: Did u saw the link in my older comment?
@hari
ReplyDeletewhen it comes to fair play it is u who often violate it . when people mutually agree to share their view upon something u generally hear what others say or coax them to say but when ur turn comes u dont say. thats not a spl ability. and u have totally misunderstood what i have said. i told that u r an introvert becoz u did not chose to share things and not becoz u are interested abt others personals. so it is a problem with you,who chooses to be a part pf a group with common idealogy and when ur turn comes, becomes the guy who does not say anything:)
Guy guys guys, whats all this.. Hari, i said ur an introvert in a very light sense. And btw Hari, for the record Introvert has several ways of interpretation.
ReplyDeleteIt basically means that u dont mingle in a crowd & a quiet loner, which is false in your case. You are not one if u look at it from that angle. But deviating from that topic, u guys deviated into whether you share your end of the story.
The reason I said that for fun was bcuz it was absolutely from the way Jeffrey was saying.. As in, you are not very comfortable discussing or disclosing things about u.. maybe thats ur nature. I dont complain, its just a make fun statement.
And Jeff, we cant be judgemental on this.. we guys were great together the last year and we had lot of fun. Maybe Hari discusses these things, with a different side of friends. Or maybe he feels a lot more secure keeping things to himself.
So, for the record, lets say Hari is an ambivert and an expert in Pull mechanism and weak in Push mechanism. :)
Damnn.. Get some grip woman.. why do u sound as though u lost ur life and ur in the last moment of it. Hari is exaggerating things. it aint possible for u to do robotics, pneumonics, dal makhani or president of united states.
ReplyDeleteOnly eat wat u can swallow.. I think ur in the rite direction now. Shed light on ur art talent and do somethin evident out there.
To me, Indian contemporary art sells like crazy money. pursue that and direct the returns to help those whom u want to, if u want to.
But one thing good about us is, coexistence. Look at us... Jeffrey, Hari, Prathy, Meenakshi, Shanthee, Peria & me...
ReplyDeleteWe are a very diverse group. But still we managed to stick together in this journey which was triggered from college and i am sure that we wud stay put for life..
We've actually broken the ice and bound by the sun rays. Although we are all of different builds and different lifestyles. I highly appreciate that.
Coherence and Coexistence is something that our class did not have but we did. Cheers guys
And Jeff.. Its good to have u back.. Namaku yethu mukiyam theriyuma..
ReplyDeleteI enjoy reading each one of ur comment and post.. Thats the better sitde of things rather than waiting and watching who is IN and who is OUT
Hey guys missed out on a heated discussion credit fully to my office work which made me stay till 4!! I remember only one exam for which I stayed awake till 4, for which I was revising third time, seriously I myself cant accept how silly I have been even in college!!
ReplyDeleteActually according to me introvert is more of a person who at times wants to be alone and alone means simply alone with nobody around so that they can speak to their own mind and get control back to themselves. And normally people fall into both categories as all classification go.
My opinion is that Hari is not a a full introvert, yes he does talk very well to me, in fact better than I talk to him nowadays :) But he is say quarter or less than that an introvert.
My dream aspiration or whichever word can be put in was to become a doctor from ever since I was taught those words!!
ReplyDeleteBut than what you desire what finally matters is what your life desires which is out of our control :)
You people know what I dint write biology entrance exam!! Yes there comes four letter word FATE... my biology +2 exam was forced between two govt school guys who dared not only to discuss in the examination hall, but also to ask things from the supervisor herself.
I was totally distracted and terribly angry, could not finish my paper; I dont clearly remember the split up, but I was sure I dint write for ten marks, must say I have had pretty good judgement I got 190 exactly!!
That was the day I cried as I had never ever before. I used to always miss centum in Maths and get 199 ever!! This anger and force to prove that I can get centum in Maths made me work so hard that I finished the Maths paper in 1 hour 15 minutes. Hmm thats all folks ;)
But I never ponder about things, so off I was after that entrance, starting C coding - ever since then I never have regretted for this change.
After all change is the only thing that does not change in life :)
According to me "இதுவும் கடந்து போகும்" applies for everything.
If life does not let you take it the way you want it to be, shape yourselves for the way that it takes you, this will also be a challenging experience :)
@meena
ReplyDeletewell said meena.. But nt all can get dat mentality.. For me i can neva do dat.. hardest...